The letter read:

Hi :/ I don’t really know what you meant by that message. But if I did something bad.. I’m sorry. It’s saying stuff like… the two of us being “over.” Why? Does it have anything to do with that message? Why’re you depressed? Why won’t you talk to me? :/ Do you… hate me now? If you do… just let me know ‘cause I don’t want to be clueless. People are saying that you like someone else.. is it true? If it is just let me know. All I really want is for your happiness naman eh. So if you’re with someone now… as long as you’re happy… I’m happy, too. Please. Just talk to me about this okay? Okay, and… I love you. :/ ~ Teddy

Idk how to react to this because this was over a year ago and we moved on and yeap. We’re on good terms. He must’ve really known me, how to win me back and all, back then.

I let him go. He let me go but he loved me. He loved me. I probably misjudged him because I thought he replaced me with - and -. But it was just harmless fun. They were just friends. I refused to believe him because “all guys are the same.” He gave up and let me go. But HE LOVED ME. He must’ve really loved me a lot a lot back then. Whoa. He loved me enough to let me go. And back then, I didn’t want him to let me go. But he did. He left. 

Look what I found. :-)

I was rummaging through my old stuff a while ago because I was looking for bags and notebooks (it’s a long story heehee). 

The Hershey’s was from waaaaay back Valentine’s Day 2012.
The necklace was a gift. (July 21, 2013)

I saw these things ALL related to Isaac. Whoa whoa whoa. Those stuffed toys were gifts. And the torn paper pieces were our way of communication before. We had a really hard time talking to each other before because we were awkward. Heeehee. 

"Your dancing is quite funny."
"I’m just doing this because I don’t want to smell like a girl."
"Gods, your drawing is nice."
"I… um, have to hug you."
"You okay?"
"A hug? Maybe. (I want to say yes.)"

And the last: "Promise??" And I did. I promised. Hehehehehe. 



Yeap. I saw this lil guy :> T’was the bear (Isaac’s gift, Christmas 2011)! Heehee :-)

And I saw a lot more “Isaac-ish” stuffs:



He used to call me Ellie just because. :> It was sort of our call sign slash tawagan. Isaac was “Teddy,” and obviously, I was “Ellie.” Heeheehee. ~



He was a corny guy and he knew I was a sucker for letters so :-)

Isaac: If you received this unsealed, Chantal read it.
Chantal: God, this is all so gay.
Abram: Lol, IKR.



The letter read:

Hi :/ I don’t really know what you meant by that message. But if I did something bad.. I’m sorry. It’s saying stuff like… the two of us being “over.” Why? Does it have anything to do with that message? Why’re you depressed? Why won’t you talk to me? :/ Do you… hate me now? If you do… just let me know ‘cause I don’t want to be clueless. People are saying that you like someone else.. is it true? If it is just let me know. All I really want is for your happiness naman eh. So if you’re with someone now… as long as you’re happy… I’m happy, too. Please. Just talk to me about this okay? Okay, and… I love you. :/ ~ Teddy

Idk how to react to this because this was over a year ago and we moved on and yeap. We’re on good terms. He must’ve really known me, how to win me back and all, back then.

And that’s all. I gotta go; we’re off to a roadtrip YAASSS. Will post as soon as there’s wifi. #wifileeching

kanyewesticle:

i dont ship…i yacht. im not a low budget bitch

Dare to read this hehehehe :-)

10 guys have confessed that they like me. They told me “I like you” face to face.

I don’t see why people even like me. I’m not complaining. I just can’t see the reason why. I’m not pretty enough or smart enough or funny enough. I can’t carry a normal conversation without feeling the slightest awkwardness. I’m either boring or interesting. My laugh is annoying. My height’s okay, my body’s okay.

I never saw myself as “girlfriend material.”

I’ve had 2 mutual understandings / things. Both guys courted me. I didn’t say yes, I told them to wait. They did. They did wait. But they left. Both ended badly.

I asked Kuya E why. Why do I always get hurt? Why did they leave me?

His answer? I’m too good for them. People see me differently, way more differently than I see myself. Maybe I’m putting myself down because I really can’t look past my insecurities and maybe because I’ve beem bullied badly before.

I’m too good for them?

Guess what?

They’re too good for me, too. Apparently.

Kuya E told me that I was too perfect for them. He saw me as if I was the perfect girlfriend. I had all the qualities any guy would want in a girl.

He said, “You’re caring and understanding and loving and well, all the qualities any guy would want in a girlfriend is in you. You’re gorgeous and amazing and interesting and bubbly and talented.”

I was stunned. Of course I was. I wasn’t used to the compliments.

"But," he interjected, "you seem too perfect for them. Of course the guy would feel insecure because you’re giving your all and he’s not. He may be giving his 100% to you, but you, you make his 100% a 10%. And, it’s either you played hard to get or easy to get…"

I had something different in mind. Maybe it’s not me. Maybe it’s not the guy. Maybe fate was playing with us. Maybe timing was screwing with us.

Timing. It all leads to timing. You could learn to love, actually. Love is pretty easy. Timig is hard. Timing, timing, timing was never our strong suits.

I hate this. Late night thoughts about some crappy topic. Especially love. Ever since I was a little girl {I am still a little girl hehe}, love has been a very sensitive subject to talk or write about.

The thing is, love is all I could ever sing and dance and paint and cook and talk and write and blog about.

I’m still a bit naive and clueless about love. Young as I am, I have learned about the universal truth about love. I’ve heard it from my friends, family, even my parents. I swore I’d never say this but I can’t help but scream it as loud as I could.

Let’s face it; love sucks.

GUISE YUNG PINAKA TAAS NA NOTIF. NATUTUWA AKO OMG OMG OMG weeeeh :-)
Wala lang. Biglang nag notify eh. Weeeh :-) :-) Nkklk. Hehe. :D Tapos dati pa pala niya ako nifofollow sa Twitter. Nakakaloka kasi isa siya sa mga favorite kong Pinoy Tumblristas. At idol ko siya kasi. :3 

(Ah eh. Hello po pala, ate dakilanggerlpren :D *kaway kaway* ang fc ko sorry po :3)

fuckerpunch:

i never realize how much i swear until i’m in a situation where i can’t

Alam ko sa sarili ko kaya ko namang magpatawad sa mga taong nanakit sa akin. Natatakot lang ako na baka hindi sila natuto sa nangyari at ulitin lang nila yung pagkakamali nila. - DG (via escafeism)

x-three:

Love, Sensual n’ Romance blog More 

Sometimes what we say isn’t really what we feel. - (via dakilanggerlpren)

I’m trying to forget but the memories are haunting me. - (via dakilanggerlpren)

Paano maging masaya sa Tumblr..

dakilanggerlpren:

  • Mind your own blog.
  • Huwag kang insecure.
  • Huwag intindihin ang mga unfollowers.
  • Huwag maging famewhore o uhaw sa followers.
  • Huwag intindihin ang notes sa bawat post mo.
  • Huwag maging conscious sa following at followers.
  • Makuntento ka sa blog mo, hindi mo naman kailangan pagandahin yan ng…

dakilanggerlpren:

"Crush, para sayo ‘to."

Sabihin mong oa ako pero talagang nababaliw na ako sayo. Gusto kong malaman mo na natutuwa ako kapag nakikita kita. Kinikilig ako sa tuwing dadaan ka sa harapan ko. Ikaw lang lagi laman ng isipan ko kahit nasa loob ako ng classroom at hanggang sa pagtulog ay iniisip pa rin kita. Kapag pipikit ako’y, mukha mo pa rin ang nakikita ko. Totoo yun! Alam mo bang Ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ganado akong gumising sa bawat araw? Naku, kung alam mo lang na sinusulat ko ang pangalan mo sa notebook ko. Salamat nga pala, hindi mo alam na may napapasaya kang tao. Tahimik lang ako e. Palihim lang akong sayo. Hindi ko na aasahang maging tayo kasi kuntento na ako sa ganito. Salamat ulit sayo.

#2 This week’s playlist.

Basically a mix of old and new songs (songs from last week’s playlist and a bunch of new ones hehe).

× Photograph - Ed Sheeran {I was scrolling through my ask.fm then I saw this hehe plus the link then I decided to give this song a try. (Btw, who’s the anon who sent the link and all??? Thanks hehe)}

× Sweater Weather - The Neighbourhood {currently on repeat. I sooo love this song